by Smt. Susmita Devi
Again
I return to one of the innumerable quotes of Sadguru Sri Sri Babathakur. The following
one is taken from the calendar of the current year:
“True Self is ever
free from desire and action.”
When
I first read it and discussed it with Ramen for the purpose of writing
something on the topic, I pondered a bit over its inner meaning – not the words,
which like most words, have synonyms. True to my habit, I therefore looked up the
word ‘self’ and got the following varieties:
Identity, personality, nature and character, but not the Self with capital
'S' (used in Hindu philosophy only).
Sri
Sri Babathakur however has by 'Self', always meant the Inherent
Divinity, i.e. the spiritual One, not the physical (body) manifestations of It. The
addition of the word ‘True’ (with a capital 'T') is and can only be singularly
mentioned, as I have often heard Sri Sri Babathakur point out: Self is indivisible and One without a second.
People
are made up of innumerable physical and mental attributes, but few truly care
to reflect on what makes the human mechanism work in such incredibly
complicated and harmonious ways. Finding no logical explanation, one must
return to the Divine, an invisible, incomparable and all-powerful non-entity.
It Is - without becoming (i.e. not born and can therefore not die).
I
think the inspiration behind the above quote is to create awareness about how
born individuals can free themselves from ideas rooted in the ego (ahankar) or
‘small self’ as Sri Sri Babathakur often calls the personal aspect of an
individual, who is bound to desire and performs actions in order to sustain
life and satisfy individual hankerings for as long as possible, in ways most
suitable to him/her. The True Self (Divine) has no desire since desire belong
to individuality only. One must not forget that ordinary desires are rooted in
the mind only and thus mainly represent nescience (spiritual ignorance).
Quotes
from ‘Nectar Of Wisdom’ (pages 270-271) may make this clearer: ..."In one sense
desire is the product of duality. To fulfill desires an agent is required and an
agent to fulfill requires some instrument or tool like sense organs, cognitive
power and activity. Nature without desire can’t function and nature without the
basic Divine Will can’t function. The difference between the Will of the Lord
and the desire of man is that the former is universal and hence spiritual and
the latter individual, hence intellectual. That means the latter pertains to
the non-self”...."So, the ego, born of duality can’t understand the Unity of
Consciousness. It finds differences with itself and with others as well. When differences appear, the reflected
consciousness suffers, and we think we suffer."...."Individual
desire is of objective character and
the universal desire is of subjective
character. Objective desires are always of the nature of tamas and rajas which,
whether fulfilled or not, produces reactionary effects while subjective desires
are of altruistic and spiritual nature. Subjective desires functions well with
the Super-ego. To seek for spiritual perfection is thus a subjective desire and
proceeds towards fulfillment and may reach the goal – the dawn of spiritual
perfection and realization, which always is Universal in character.”
Sorry
to say, the Truth is that, although we appear as separate entities, every born
human (or animal) depends on Prana (life force) in some form. Prana is that which allows individuals to exist
- if there is no Prana, one is considered dead. But, it is only the physical
body which dies because the Prana is released from it and carries all the
worldly impressions of doing, saying and belief (Karma) till It again is
suffused into another body (reincarnation). So when anyone says: ‘I was, is and
will always be’, they are referring to Prana and not the variety of bodies which may be
infused with the dormant Prana from last birth.
I
try to reflect every now-and-then on the implied meaning, the effect it has on
one’s life and how it may be possible to remain so aloof from daily activity
and interaction with others as to forget that the ‘I’ is the imperishable part of one’s individuality,
actions and reactions. 'I' does not remain in the dead body, but is contained in
the Prana. I react to the memory of the quote in a practical way by asking ‘How
can an ordinary mind grasp such high-level thoughts?’ How can such unique
thoughts be used and communicated in daily life? To go to a lecture and nodding
approval is easy, but when it comes to implementation in daily life there are
many hurdles of habit and upbringing to overcome – especially the hurdle of the
ego sense. Living in the world (especially in such a turbulent time as now with
so many non-essential inputs), it is unquestionably, extremely difficult to
remain calm and composed in the midst of chaos and socially imposed mind-work
by saying ‘Let the Divine Lila
(shadow-play/imagination) play, but retain
an unaffected state in inner life’. This is the very reason why spiritual
practices (e.g. meditation, yoga, introspection, giving unselfish service, listening to songs or lectures about the Divine
Lila) must be practiced regularly. Human mind is prone to select the easiest way
out, which often is just to participate in what others do and think.
We
are born with a universal mind, but slowly develop it into an individual
body/mind complex. Through upbringing, one is socially and culturally
conditioned to carry one's daily functioning while living in a society. That kind of upbringing has the capacity to become so ingrained
in one’s behavior and thought, that any response to environment becomes
automatic like ’where is my dress,
toy, food, husband, wife etc., etc'. The fact is that, whatever is provided us
to use - and even the capacity to worship - is socially conditioned. Mind,
indeed, becomes conditioned with the reflection that ‘I’ am the center of the
‘my’ world - unique and special. To enable one to accept and live according to
the idea of Universal Unity, to accept and practice another viewpoint of life
is not easy. It takes numerous years, and mental and physical alertness
(Tapasya) to imbibe that one is but part of a Whole - with limited time in each
birth to reach Perfection and thus be able to shed both desire and the idea
that the human form - the ‘i’ act (referring to the individual endeavor in the
relative world) can be purged of useless ideas and practices. It is of utmost
importance to carry on even then, for with each birth new aspects are impressed
and used by mind. Many a saintly personage have written about and taught how to
reach the stage where the small ‘i’ (individuality) is replaced by the
Universal ‘I’. It is however not easy, for one must either negate common life
and society or transcend it. To transcend is the ideal, yet very few can truly
manifest the transcendental ‘I’, the Self, the undivided’ One without a second’.
Those who can are, designated as Sadgurus, like Sri Sri Babathakur.